yesterday, during my snorkel tour at turtle cove, i found a huge, beautiful spotted eagle ray. i had my group follow it to the edge of the reef and didn't care that we were late back to the boat. today, i went scuba diving for the first time after months of procrastinating. and then i went two more times right afterwards, cause i'm a little addicted now. tonight, i had my last sunset sail. we pulled onto the mooring with no moon and all stars. then we sat in the dark harbor and had leftover red wine and cigarettes over stories about sea life. tomorrow is my last day working for castaway and it's a full day trip (my favorite). i think tomorrow night, after a couple of drinks, i can die happy.
but, i shouldn't. because i think the best is yet to come.
leaving is starting to feel so hard, because i'm savoring and enjoying every aspect of this lifestyle right now. the beauty, the people, the countless things to do that keep my body eternally exhausted... even the inconveniences and the tourists and all the little things that once annoyed me.
we should all always live as if we're leaving. to stay excited. to be grateful for every little thing. to let the people we love know exactly how we feel. and to say YES like it'll be the last time. because, you never know... it just might be.